Tuesday, February 20, 2018

Jeremiah 2:23 - Know what you have done

know what you have done

Knowing what you have done...
Always a tricky business for you and me.
Our knowing is prism'd by our faceted memories.
Impressions of the past, impressions of 
the present even - that's all we
ever really have.

And so I am struck by God's commandment
in the book of Jeremiah to "Know what
you have done." Surely He knew
it is a nigh on impossible 
thing for we frail

I wonder if He knew what He
was doing by placing
such a heavy 
on an already
overburdened soul...
which He made
in precisely
the flawed




Monday, February 19, 2018

Sunday at MunSu Sa

Mun Su Sa


Gesture of fearlessness, and blessing


that you almost cannot bear it..

Parker River Wildlife Refuge

"I'll tell you right now, the doors to the world of the wild self are few but precious. If you have a deep scar, that is a door; if you have an old, old story, that is a door. If you love the sky and the water so much that you almost cannot bear it, that is a door. If you yearn for a deeper life, a full life, a sane life, that is a door."

~ Clarissa Pinkola Estés ~


Saturday, February 17, 2018

Go in pieces, the Mass has ended...


Another Second Amendment Martyrdom Liturgy (SAML) is underway.

Seventeen innocents have been martyred to the most precious of American rights.

Many do not know this, but the SAML patterns itself after the liturgies of the Empire's very own pet religion, Christianity.

As in Christian liturgies, prayers plays a big role in a SAML - actually Thoughts and Prayers - both of which are dispensed as if from a fire hose.

As in Christian liturgies - some readings are done in call and response fashion, with one side of the congregation braying for gun control, and the other somberly intoning that "now is not the time to politicize this tragedy."

As in Christian liturgies - candles are sometimes used.

There are many other similarities like clergy, community, and of course - how things go right back to business-as-usual after the Mass ends.

Unlike those Christian liturgies however, SAML starts with the sacrifice instead of plunking it in the middle of the proceedings just after tedious church announcements. And - unlike Christian celebrations of the Mass, SAML always demands real human sacrifice - not merely some transubstantiated bread and grape juice mental gymnastics..

Real blood.

Real pain.

Real loss.

Horrifying, I know.

Despair-inducing, I well know.

The depth of the horror and bloody sacrifice points to the vitality and power of this religion, the Empire's truest religion, one that undergirds the polite fascia of Christianity - The First Church of Guns & Ammunition. No other church would dare demand such an awful, unthinkable price as child sacrifice, but the The First Church of Guns & Ammunition does it with remarkable regularity. Any other church would be shuttered and torched to the ground if it even whispered about killing children - even that bunch that so loves to fuck little children - they'd be gone in a tick too.

Where Christianity, the Empire's pocket-tool for pacification, is slowly losing its grip on the populace, The First Church of Guns & Ammunition thrives with the vigor of all new religions. Its expansion is guaranteed. Its success is written into the Empire's founding documents.

The First Church of Guns & Ammunition is a savage, brutal religion for a savage, brutal land.

Go in pieces, the Mass has ended....


Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Look down

Parker River Wildlife Refuge

Pay attention to the road beneath you.
If you're lucky you might find
graceful, swooping, lyrical
road repairs. The in-
crowd will sniff
and call them 

void of artistic intentionality.

Those of us who are on the outs
however, are free to appreciate
these for what they are - 



Monday, February 12, 2018

옴 치 림

Om Chirim - protection mantra

옴 치 림 (pronounced Om ChiRim) is the mantra of protection. It's repeated three times in the sprawling Thousand Hand Sutra that is chanted every day in Buddhist Temples..

I love the Thousand Hands Sutra. It has litanies, vows, repentances, and the Great Dharani. It also has lots of mantras, like Om ChiRim.

Best chanted in a crowd, but by oneself is also good. 


Sink Session

Sink Session


Sunday, February 11, 2018

In waves...

Parker River Wildlife Refuge

"Like the sea, we are always in motion. The waves loom in our dreams and in our nightmares through all of time, their rhythms pulsing through us. They move across a faint horizon, the rush of love and the surge of grief, the respite of peace and then fear again, the heart that beats and then lies still, the rise and fall and rise and fall of all of it, the incoming and the outgoing, the infinite procession of life. And the ocean wraps the earth, a reminder. 
The mysteries come forward in waves."
~ Susan Casey ~


Wednesday, February 7, 2018

Perceive World Sound

Kwan Seum Bosal


That's Ok if That's What You Like..

Parker river wildlife refuge

Unless and until someone shows you
their messiness in all its tangled glory and
unless and until you share your ugliness,
with them, everything is play acting,
just well-mannered play 


But still

Self portrait 

It's not like he couldn't appreciate the allure
of being part of the group. After all, he
was a tree and they were trees,
very nice trees too, he
had to admit.

But still.. 


Sunday, February 4, 2018

The Imprisoned Must Remain Vigilant

Parker River Wildlife Refuge

There's a bend in the road where,
if you're not careful,
trees will reach down and
snatch your will to
continue doing the same
soul-crushing drudgery
you've been doing
for the last thirty years -
and then where
would you


Only This...

Parker River Wildlife Refuge

By the time I arrived at the Cathedral, the Sun was already well on its way down. By the time I left, it was the golden hour and a cold day got even colder.

I found a new (to me) side chapel which was happily deserted. The hymns  were sung by Canada geese honking in a patch of still-unfrozen marsh water. The sermon was icy wind, groaning tree trunks rubbing together, and frozen grass crunching under foot.

Not a false word was spoken.

There were no promises of happier times in this life or the next.

There were no creeds. There were no vows.

There was Only This:
The spacious, healing, indifference of the Great Wide World. 
Parker River Wildlife Refuge


Saturday, February 3, 2018


Parker River Wildlife Refuge 

Please stand and open your prayer books to The Book of The Prophets.
“To stand at the edge of the sea, to sense the ebb and flow of the tides, to feel the breath of a mist moving over a great salt marsh, to watch the flight of shore birds that have swept up and down the surf lines of the continents for untold thousands of years, to see the running of the old eels and the young shad to the sea, is to have knowledge of things that are as nearly eternal as any earthly life can be.” 
~ Rachel Carson ~

It's frigid up here.

With a high of 27 degrees and a 15mph southwest wind blowing, it'll seem like mid-teens - a perfect day for church. The slicing cold will sweep clear the sanctuary.

It will be birds and wind and sea and sky for company - an embarrassment of riches.

On days like this, it is easy to receive the great central teaching of the Cathedral of the Great Wide World -  that you are a creature like your fellow creatures, and a small, fragile, insignificant one at that. It is a scouring lesson to be sure, but a liberating one too. To be stripped of one's tired stories of tinny accomplishments, banal disappointments - the whole tiresome sack of perseveration - well - that is the very definition of liberation. 


Wednesday, January 31, 2018



"There is something to be learned from a rainstorm. When meeting with a sudden shower, you try not to get wet and run quickly along the road. But doing such things as passing under the eaves of houses, you still get wet. When you are resolved from the beginning, you will not be perplexed though you still get the same soaking. This understanding extends to everything."

Yamamoto Tsunetomo - "Hagakure: The Book of the Samurai"


Saturday, January 27, 2018


Jijang bosal

 JiJang Bosal Likhita Japa

Written in Korean 




Friday, January 26, 2018

I hope this ends up being as good as it looks...

Come Sunday - a Netflix Original

Coming out in Mid April


Tuesday, January 23, 2018

Teyata Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Soha

Teyata Gate Gate Paragate Parasamgate Bodhi Soha

The great, bright, mantra...

Hand-lettered on Rhodia Graph Paper
Scanned on Canon Lide
Post-processing - 

Lightroom, Photoshop Elements 8.0
Tangled FX, iColorama


Monday, January 22, 2018



“...Our challenge as Christians is not to try to convert people around us to our way of belief but to love them, to be ourselves living incarnations of what we believe, to live what we believe and to love what we believe.”

~ John Main ~


And Speaking of Spiritual Direction

Parker River Wildlife Refuge 2018

....this is some of the best
I've ever received.